addicted to
i'm not here to win
i'm here to leave a legacy
tears.
it's the passion that drives you
endorphins
pain
exhaustion
chasing this insane dream
perfection
tagboard ;
guestbook
screwed up yet again
you've misunderstood me...
and it hurts
so bad.
just want to give up now.
let go.
be in peace...
never have to see the sun rise or set.
never have to hear you shout at me again.
never have to see myself screw up.
trying to pretend.
pretend i'm ok.
pretend everything's perfectly normal.
pretend i can actually go on like this.
but that's all it is right?
pretending
don't want to bother about tomorrow, today or yesterday.
just...want to forget
forget the infinite times i've screwed up.
left so broken, faithless and depressed.
please, let me forget.
ease the pain - for once?
the cuts get deeper and deeper each time.
wounds so deep they never show ;
they never go away.
want to leave this world so badly.
i can't handle it.
you don't understand...
nobody does.
this torture has no end
until tears stop flowing,
and my heart stops beating.
wishing for that day to come
quickly
help me please.